hey everyone! i thought id drop by and leave a quick update! ive been working a lot lately :S! im thinking about quitting.. its not worth it. my marks in school are droppping, im constantly stressed out and i never have time for my friends anymore.  the money is good and everything.. but im a kid.. i need my life back!  anyways.. um.. nothing happened last night.. i worked. came home... finished off my moms drawing.. talked on here. went to bed :p. boring eh? my whole weekend completely shot for fukin work! i hate it!!! anyways w/e.. last night i went completely bitch attack on lots of people. i just felt like garbage and i just broke down emotionally and i saw kyle.. we drove past him.. our eyes watched eachother. i dont think ive ever felt so cold in my life. it was the worst feeling in my life. we both looked at eachother like our eyes were frozen to eachother.. he looked so sad.. maybe i should call him.. but i dont want to soften.  i still dont care.  he hurt me so bad and that is definatly not a road i will ever think twice about going down.. but i do miss him as being a friend.. and i sure do miss our hours and hours of phone calls about nothing.. I guess nobody has the time to just be with me anymore.. :(..

anyways.. school is good.. but my english mark is suppsoly 70% and there is NO WAY!! he makes me so mad.. ive never gotten ANYTHING under 70% almost all my assignments were 100%.. wtf!! 70!!!! :@ i dont understand but i dont want to ask him about it cuz' he scares me sooo much!! AHH!! 

i betta go.. ill write more later.. bye bye
love your secret lover,
ashlyn.