Broken Girl

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x that {GiRL} ASHLYN love me! love me! bah!
x years/young } 16
x (boy) STatz [[SiNGLE]] h0lla :p Time for a change :s
x [d]-day ((february)) 15. 1987.
x {d}rain_drop_luv15@hotmail.{dot}c0m
x shout !GiRLS! v.i.p Sarah,Erin, Kristine, Jess
shout $GUYZ$ Brandon L, Brandon S, Kyle, Justin, Jonny, n many more.
x message; ((you never know what you got until its gone)).. no matter how hard i try to forget you, you'll always be a part of me.. I was blind.. but you were wrong.

Here are some of my poems about my life:

Asshole

The boy everbody liked
So goofy and fun to be with
Thats who used to be
Center of attention
Always wanting more
Partying from day to night
No cares at all
Such a free spirit you were
But that all changed
The day i met you
We were so happy
Then the tears came
The lies began
The pain became unberable
You promised you would always be here for me
Whenever i needed you
You would drop it all
Just to take care of me
How could this ever be true?
When i needed you
Your excuse was SLEEP
YOU ASSHOLE
I loved you
You made me hurt
Spent my life
Getting over you
Forgetting about you
Moving on with my life
Being careful never to give anyone else my whole heart
You had control over me
Tugging at me whenever you felt the need
Promises that were never for real
We finally broke apart
And you left without a trace
Tears were cried for no good reason
Life was wasted over nothing worth the time
You made me believe you were worth me
Months of un-needed sorrow
I finally got through it all
Let go of you
Let go of the pain
Im doing fine
Im doing great
I call you for some help
Out of the blue
I need a friend
Now you tell me you want me back
That you love me
Always have
always will
Well sweetie pie hunny bunch
I've got news for you
Go to hell
YOU ASSHOLE

Things You Never Knew About Me

I never told you my name
Never thought you were worthy of my game
It was all just fun and play
You turned it round on me
I went crazy
I fell hard
You made me fall in love with you
You never knew the truth
Not really who you think i am
Not even close
Dont sit and watch the clock
Anticipating for the end
Sit and watch your eyes
Anticipating for more
You never made me cry
You never made me hurt
Always so happy
When we were together
The love was so strong
I knew it was time
I told you the truth
And i saw the tears in your eyes
I broke your heart
And watched the pain
Erased the love
From your heart
Now we are no more
The lies were just too strong
They made your eyes bleed
Now we are alone
And the lights are all
Burnt out
Just becasue I never told you
What you should have known
Too foolish you see the love
The pain is now too real
Im laying in my bed
Wishing i wasnt such a fool
I played you bad and now were through
The love is dead
Becasue i played
Played the game
Way too wrong.

Uncontrolable Hurt

Im laying in my bed
wakin up i see my ceiling
punch my pillow
shut up
break my window with a broken picture frame
push my bed over
hit the wall
bleeding nuckles
do you care now?
NO!
throw myself down the stairs
hm.. that feels good.
again.
again.
again.
again.
again.
NO!
take you and throw you down the stairs
you leave blood on your way down
HA, i showed you didnt i?
didnt think i could take care of myself
your wrong
your very wrong
your dead
im alive
are you right now?
NO!
im right.
im right.
im right.
it kills me to say
that i dont care
but i dont
you killed me
now your turn to feel pain.

YOU

Somedays when im walking around
you smile at me
like nothing ever happened
and thats what i love
i like to forget about everything
living in the sky like an angel.
People look at me the way they want to
they see only what they want
not what i am
not that i know who i am either
im not perfect
not even close
i put my trust in you
i gave you all of me
you held onto me
all control
you let your mind run away with me
messing with me all the time
it was all a joke to you
you made me trust
you made me care
you made me want you
but you made me hurt
your the one who made my eyes bleed
you stopped me from breathing
you stopped me from living
now you want me back
now that im free
im over you
you want me back
i want you too
but the pain you caused is just too much
id rather die alone
then let you hurt me once more
im sorry.



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