Broken Girl

Nov 30, 2003

another day. another lie. another tear.

DOnt turn around im sick and tired of your face! dont make this worse. uve already gone and got me mad. its to bad im not sad. its casting over. its jsut one of those things you have to get over it.

Thats how im feeling right now. Everything i thought i knew about kyle was a lie. Everything i thought he was, he wasnt. It was all a joke. it was all a lie. and only today did i find this out. i was his god damn security blanket. he made me believe he actually cared. he made me feel like he actually did love me. that i actually ment something. but i was never anything. i was always nothing. and it kills so much to know that the one person who tried to make me feel liek something, truly believed i was nothing.

Today an extremely hard day. I dont want to give details. Im selfish i hear.. which i dont understand nor believe. I always put my friends first. I only think about myself when im alone. I constantly worry about everyone, im constantly thinking about other people. I tried so hard to look at it from a differnt view.. try and see how i am. but i realy dont think i am.

Today i was told that i will die alone and im so fucked up that nobody will ever care about me. That dug so fucking deep. maybe i am fucked up. maybe im not a great person. but for fucking sakes i hear from people that should love me that they dont i dont need it from people that are suppose to be my fucking friends.

I want to pack up all of my things and move away from this. Ever since i moved to this dumb place my life has crumbled. I hate it and i want to leave. yea, i may be running from my problems but it seems that running is the only thing that i do well. SO hey, why not work with my one good attribute.

Im gone. Have a nice day.
Love Your Secret Lover,
ashlyn.

Posted at 07:49 pm by crazydamage
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Nov 11, 2003

Tuff Enuff

For so long Ive burried myself from the world. I let myself fall down becasue i was scared. I was scared to let go. I was scared to live. For so long i forgot who i was. Only being who i thought you wanted me to be. I lost myself long ago and im trying so hard to get myself back. Im trying to find me, be me. I want you to know me. So im starting all over again. Im starting my life from scractch. I hope you understand im doing this for myself, not for you. I have to do this. Once i understand myself maybe you will understand who i am and we can understand eachother.

Im sorry to anyone who ever gave me the time of day and i messed up. im sorry if i ever let you down. If i was never there for you or if i was there for you too much. *hugs*

So anyways onto my messed up life... Lots of stuff has been going on lately. Ill list things because its easier...

1) Alicia's sister had her baby.. its a boy!! yay!! :D
2) Alicia gets to see her friend kyle who was in an accident. *lots of love*
3) Work is crazy
4) Brice's brother and girlfirend got in a scary car accident *lots of love*
5) The riders lost their game yesterday :(
6) My sisters soccer team won silver in their tournement
7) My sister won MVP for her team
8) We bought a digital camera
9) Andy owes me ice cream
10) Justin N, is still not worh my time
11) All of my firends are pretty much getting along again
12) Brandon lost his hockey game
13) Kory asked me out

Etc.. theres been a lot going on, some of it i cant put in here.. :s

I've been listening to this song.. Have a little faith-mandy moore. I cant stop listening to it. Its how im feeling right now.. Please, you just have to understand i need you to have faith in me. :). Thank-you Syd. I will never forget you. Ever.

I've also been listening to this song.. Our Lady Peace-Ive loved you all along. I heard it a couple times when i was on the phone with brice and i finally downloaded it. Its such a good song... it makes me cry.. i cant explaine but if you give me the time one day and ask me.. im sure i could explaine.. lots of tears and hugs but yeah.. haha. im such a girly girl. :p.

Anyways this is long enuff and i think im going to stop! Ttyl

Love Your Secret Lover,
Ashlyn.

Posted at 01:21 am by crazydamage
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Nov 2, 2003

update~

hey everyone! i thought id drop by and leave a quick update! ive been working a lot lately :S! im thinking about quitting.. its not worth it. my marks in school are droppping, im constantly stressed out and i never have time for my friends anymore. the money is good and everything.. but im a kid.. i need my life back! anyways.. um.. nothing happened last night.. i worked. came home... finished off my moms drawing.. talked on here. went to bed :p. boring eh? my whole weekend completely shot for fukin work! i hate it!!! anyways w/e.. last night i went completely bitch attack on lots of people. i just felt like garbage and i just broke down emotionally and i saw kyle.. we drove past him.. our eyes watched eachother. i dont think ive ever felt so cold in my life. it was the worst feeling in my life. we both looked at eachother like our eyes were frozen to eachother.. he looked so sad.. maybe i should call him.. but i dont want to soften. i still dont care. he hurt me so bad and that is definatly not a road i will ever think twice about going down.. but i do miss him as being a friend.. and i sure do miss our hours and hours of phone calls about nothing.. I guess nobody has the time to just be with me anymore.. :(..

anyways.. school is good.. but my english mark is suppsoly 70% and there is NO WAY!! he makes me so mad.. ive never gotten ANYTHING under 70% almost all my assignments were 100%.. wtf!! 70!!!! :@ i dont understand but i dont want to ask him about it cuz' he scares me sooo much!! AHH!!

i betta go.. ill write more later.. bye bye
love your secret lover,
ashlyn.

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Oct 28, 2003

SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP SHUT UP!

Hey. It's me and i decided to make a quick stop by and leave a little update...

Im doing GREAT in all of my classes excpet for math :p.. my math mark is going to be in the 50's while the res are high 80's and 90's!! i hate math!! i dont even have to take it anymore.. but i am.. anyways.. so thats all good and stuff oh and me lynn and jenny totally aced our bio presentation.. 90% baby :D! hahaha! anyways yeh.. thats school!

Today i went out walking with jessica and we ended up going to her elemntry school and hanging out with her young/somewhat of a teacher! and just talked and laughed... it was good stuff!! I was shy which was weird i guess its cuz' i thought of him like a teacher but he wasnt my teacher.. i duno. it was weird! and jess gave him her number! haha.. SLUT!! haha JK JK JK JK! JK! i love yas! hahaha! yup anyways

And then afterwards i debated with myself for awhile and eventually decided to go say hi to brandon and he showed me his new car cd thingy which is some hott stuff i have to admit! but yesh.. then i jogged home! yay me!!

My parents and sister have been constantly fighting and i cant take it! last night i bawled my face off! why cant they just get along. they ovbiously dont see the damage they are doing to me and my sister. :( or just dont care.. whatever.

Boys.. blah! i thought of a line from a song i liked for kyle and slade.. take note boys.. "SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP SHUT UP!" cuz' honestly, im sick of all your crap and all your lies!! i never once meant anything more to you then something that pleased you. it was never about "us". it was about how i made u feel and that was the end. Wel im sorry, but this is my game and u loose.

Thats all for my updates..

Wed: Enever band and 5 others play at bassment
Thurs: david's old band plays at bassment

Thurs: brice halloween improv
Thurs: X country wind up (bowling at eastview) - bring $10 and rides! [i can take 6]

Thats all for now! toodles!! bye bye!!

ps: we are scuba diving in SPED! :D im so nervous!!!!

Love Your Secret Lover,
Ashlyn.

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Oct 25, 2003

I dont know what i want... But i know i dont want you.

Hey.. so time for an up-date i suppose.. I've been thinking for awhile.. honestly why do i write in this thing anyways? I mean, people just read it.. rate me.. judge me.. but you know what my decision was?.. honestly. i dont give a fuck. im not forcing you to read this or anyalize my life. If you choose to read this, then fucking deal with the truth of my writting. I write what i feel/want to feel, what i think/want to think. If you care at all then you wouldnt feel the need to judge my writting. Thats all. I just wanted to make sure everyone completely understood that. If you cant handle it, then dont read it. If your tempted, most likely you wont like what you read. Blah! im done. haha

Anyways onto life. Life is so utterly and sickly confusing. Im so sick of dealing with things.. First off let me start with some good news. My firend Jasmine had her baby!! It's a girl and her name is Nikki!! Im so happy for the two of them! I love you both soo much! You mean the world to me and i will be by your sides till the end! Now for other stuff.. Blah! Yesterday at work.. it was long and boring and funny. Yup~ im working on halloween haha.. we are allowed to dress up but i think im okay with not.. hahahaha. but yeah.. um.. Anyways so i heard some stuff through a friend that kyle (ex boyfriend) wants to date me again and make it work. Honestly, not interested. We've been down this road. We both got hurt. Im sorry. You blocked yourself out of my life and i am not willing to let you back into my heart, i will not let you hurt me anymore. Im sorry. But that is all. Another one of my ex boyfirends; Slade. Called me last night, and today.. supposly telling me he still has feelings for me and stuff.. yeah im strong in mind and all that stuff but you know what? I have feelings for him still.. of course i do.. he was the first, and only boy that i can ever say i loved. I really honestly did. And he left and a piece of me died. Im still trying to gather this piece. I don't have the strength nor the power to deal with this. Again, im not going down this road. Supposly he is moving back into the city... well that will definitely be akward. Maybe i will just avoid it all together.. I guess all i can say is.. "I don't know what i want.. But i know i don't want you" <Quote by moi. And it means exaclty what it states.

Im not ready to be in a relationship, not even close. If i cant handle taking care of myself how on earth why would i let myself have to handle taking care of someone else. Im sorry but i cant! I want to, eventually. But im not fuking up anymore. If you honeslty want a relationship with me your going to have to work hard. Im not going to let myself get hurt anymore. No more games, no more toys. I'm spent, im throwing in my towel..

Ok.. so besides that crap.. um. Work is crazy hectic.. as always.. nothing new there. :p~ School is scaring me!! Im working so hard and im scared my grade 12 math isnt gunna be good enough... i guess ill wait and see waht happens.

My family life is flat out garbage. Today i snapped. My dad started yelling at my sister and she ran upstairs crying and i just freaked. I was liek DONT YOU YELL AT HER! DONT YOU YELL AT HER!!! I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU AND NEITHER DOES SHE!! JUST FUKIN SHUT UP!!! i just spazed. and i think it shocked him that im no longer a little girl, that his threats will no longer keep me up at night haunting me. He's treating my sister the way he treated me when i was younger and i know exactly how she feels so im trying to be there for her.. cuz i know when i went through that i needed someone older to talk to and there was nobody. There was no one at all taht i could talk to. Nobody understood, nobody cared, nobody was ever around.

Anyways im outty~ goodbye.

Love Your Secret Lover,
Ashlyn.

Posted at 11:53 pm by crazydamage
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Oct 17, 2003

SHIZIT!

My name is: Ashlyn
I was born on: Feb, 15h, 1987
I am from: Kenora
In the morning I am: up too early and too happy
All I need is: my puppy
I'm afraid of: bugs, love, staying sane.. hahahaha
I dream about: the weirdest stuff i cant explaine it doesnt really make sense.. and i always dream in black and white.. who knows why. :p

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E .S E X-

What do you notice first?: smile and eyes
Last person YOU slow danced with: ha, i dont even remeber the last dance i went to!! lol!! i think i wanta go to formal this year..
Worst question to ask: 'did it hurt'... could be asked about anything!!!

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-

Sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?: hola no! sometimes i will leave it on and check it every once in awhile and if they are on then i will stay on but i cant stay on the computer for long times, i get bored too easily.
Save aol/aim conversations: my computer just saves them i dont know how to chage that :p
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: yicky.. sorry no. lol

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-

You talked to on the phone: my daddy!! he called from the kitchen!! hahahaha. dont ask..
Hugged: brandon
You instant messaged: jenn's saf.. hahaha ;)
You laughed with: my sister.
Kissed: never kissed anyone so i couldnt tell you.. ill let you know when it happens haha

-D O .Y O U-

Color your hair: Nope
Ever get off the computer: haha yeah
Habla espanol: do i speak spanish?? no but i can read it.. haha

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-

Smoke cigarettes: tried it :p. thas the past.
Have a girlfriend/boyfriend: Nope
Obsessive: i can be but usualyl not
Could you live without the computer?: yep as long as i get my tele!!!
How many peeps are on your buddylist?: 150
Whats your favorite food?: Pasta, perogies
Whats your favorite fruit?: raspberries, strawberries, cherries n peaches!!
Drink alcohol?: sometiems havent for awhile.. well since thanksgiving haha
Like watching sunrises or sunset: sunset
What hurts the most? watching someone u love die b4 ur eyes
Trust others way too easily?: No, i trust a whole of like 2 people.

-N U M B E R-

Of times I have had my heart broken?: a couple.. really hard core.. twice.
Of boys I have kissed?: 0
Of girls I have kissed?: 0
Of times I have moved?: kenora-thunder bay-saskatoon. so twice. oya baby! hahaha
Of tight friends?: umm.. not many. i keep my distance.
Of cd's that I own?: oh geez, too many.
Of scars on my body?: a lot.
Of things in my past that I regret?: nothing.

I KNOW: sometimes u just have to walk away, no looking back.
I WANT: everyone to be happy, for real. not fake. no no no.
I HAVE: some of the best friends in the world and some of the worst.
I WISH: people stopped being sad. its not worth it.
I HATE: when my firends are stupid, sad, and fighting.
I MISS: our phone calls
I FEAR: i already told u!!! go look up!!
I HEAR: click click click and jessica riddle on my cd thigny! ahha

Thats all.
Love me!! hahaha

Love Your Secret Lover,
Ashlyn.

Posted at 11:56 pm by crazydamage
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RaNdoM GaRbAgE

hearts are toys
feelings are flaws
our faults are
letting in too easy
last time
dont promise
only crash n' burn
not your toy
don't wind me up
goods only fall
hearts only break
minds only stop
the love is dead
razor still cutting
im still running
              running from you
your still walking
              walking away
holdin' my hands
lovin' my heart
kissin my tears
              gone
              gone
              gone
wantin ya to chase me
wantin ya to catch me
u still sittin back
u still watching me
watchin me walk away
so many times
u coulda had me back
neva gave me time
neva let me heal
left me standin'
didnt whipe away tears
let me fall
come crashin down
skid marks
screeches
its all to real
u cant save me now
too far out
sea covers my tracks
im gone
ur still standin' still
im not commin' back
hold your breath
ur not worth me
no more, no more.

thats some jibberish that just lingered out of my finger tips haha i havent read it and i dont want to so i hope it makes sense for whoever reads this crap.

Anyways nothing is really new with me. ha, thats a lie. everythings new with me. but i dont feel like writting about it. hahaha. i've been getting to know soemone i have wanted to get to know for a really long time and im so happy :D. I don't think he wants anything to happen between us and i can deal with that... the feelings wont go away, they never have and its been goin on 3 years now.. creepy.. scary how i still manage to not let go :p. Why do i hold onto so many things...??? Whateva!! life is good. no no.. life is great!!

TOMORROW IS PROVINCIALS!! and im scared shitless!!!! its not even funny!! im so nervous yet so excited to be with all those awesome people all day!! hahaha its going to be amazing!! i cant wait.. i leave at 6:00am and i wont be home till around 9:00pm!!!!! hahahahhaa... my parents are comming too and me and jenny are driving back with my parents.. we will be so hyper!!! hahaha.. :D. i hope i do okay and even if i dont.. it was all worth it!!!! :D:D:D:D!!! hahaha

Everyone seems so pissy lately. like fuk. honestly i swear so many of my friends have forgotten i even fucking exsist cuz what i blow em off once or twice. like fuck!! as if they have never done that to me!! i duno.. i feel so alone.. none of my friends from school hardly ever talk to me anymore.. they are fighting with eachother or just fukin who knows. but i hate it! and fuck. today.. i dont know what was going on.. but erin seemed mad at me all fucking day. like WTF DID I DO?!!!!! or didnt do?? jenn asked me to go out to lunch today so i went of course and i remebered erin said she didnt have drivers ed today eh and me and jenn were already outside on our way to the mall and i was liek SHIT!! i gotta go ask erin if she wants to come and i run inside looking for her in the commons and i was gunna go try and wakl around the school and i was like shes probably with someone else and its already been 10min so we should go so we do. and later on i see her in the bathroom and shes all mad like "didnt u remeber i didnt have drivers ed today" and supposly i looked right at her and left?? WTF!! IF I LOOKED RIGHT FUCKING AT HER I WOULDA FUCKING SAID SOMETHING!! I DIDNT FUCKIGN SEE HER!! and wtf!! me remeber? yeah i did remeber but the way she said it, it was almost liek she expects me to remeber her fucking schedule!!! like geezus!! thats not fuckign fair!! IM NOT PERFECT!

Nobody wants to get along.. all anybody wants to do anymore is be mopy mopy sad. fucking get over it. ur a kid. shit happens. move the fuck on. i screw up. im a screw up... SO WHAT!!! im 16!!! I DONT CARE!!!!!!! ill grow up. but not yet. nope. not now. so stop treating me liek this. Whatever.. people. honestly. your still a kid but u dont need to act like theres other kids in the sandbox.. dont throw sand.. ur just breakin hearts. (this is not about a guy its about my freinds..)
I just dont understand how people can hurt people and think it doesnt matter. How they can sit there and make u guess..

WHAT IS WRONG WITH EVERYONE!!! DID U FORGET TO SMILE???? i just want to go and hug everyone and make everyone, but i cant and everyone expects me to... dont say its not true. It is. Everyone thinks im happy 24/7 and i keep wanting to escape and run back to your house where i can just fall into your arms and cry. Let everything loose. Remeber when you called me and you told me you loved me? That still runs through my head all the time. You were my best friend... and you walked out of my life just cuz' i couldnt be the girl u wanted me to be.

People keep comming to me for relationship advice/crushes/w/e u want to call them.. but you know what.. WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!?! i mean of course i will love to help and i will try me best but mostly i listen... why would you ask the one girl whose best trait is breaking peoples hearts? I've never hung onto any boyfriend for more than three weeks.. its all a joke. ur right, i wont know what love is, becasue i wont let anyone love me, and when i do let them come close, i freak myself out and run baby run!!! i run for my life i run to save my heart. then i regret being an idiot and here i am suffocating in my tears of broken hearts.

I need out.
Love Secret Lover,
Ashlyn

Posted at 11:26 pm by crazydamage
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Oct 12, 2003

I will Bounce back. You will NOT.

Its times like these i wish i had the strength to tell you to your face how much i hate you, how you make me sick to my stomach. I hate what i've done. But i hate you even more, for letting me do this to myself. How can you tell me it was all a joke? HOW THE HELL CAN YOU SAY THAT TO ME? Your such an insensitive jerk. How i ever started to like you? I have no idea. You mean nothing to me. I don't even want to be friends with you. You lied, you hurt me. And you make me sick. You can never un-due what you have done. I wont let you. Ha, this is so pathetic. Why did i even care? maybe i didnt. who knows. fuk. this is all to stupid. you were too stupid. This is my game. And you loose. The end. Goodbye. back it up. I will bounce back. You will not. Goodbye... (The person that, that little part was about knows who they are.)

Now.. for the rest of my life.. Im really worried about my friend Brice cuz' i think this girl really hurt him and i havent gotten a chance to really talk to him and see if hes okay. I really hope he is.. Today at work i got off an 1 1/2 early :D yay! it was sooo slow.. i mean.. it was DEAD! hahaha... anyways. a song that really reminded me of kyle and me made me really sad and i almost broke down into tears. We had this couple of really mean people come into today at work and i swear if i had just the tinest bit of dignity gone in me i woulda fucking nailed the bitches in the face. They are like *cough cough* and im like uh is that a rude way of getting my attention.. oh and it was so im like yes? and they are liek are fries are ice cold can we have some new ones or these re-heated and im like oh yeah not a problem ill bring u 2 new orders. So i go and tell the cook and w/e so he does and i come back with their fries and as soon as i get there with the fries they look at me. Put their coats on and im like um.. ok.. well can i wrap this up for u to go and they are like no. and left. man it was the rudest thign ever. if they ever come into the store again im gunna tell one of the boss's n make them leave. It was horribly. i think that was the first time any of the customers really made me feel like crap.. i mean down right crap.

Oh some other terrific news.. NOT... i found out one of the guys at work has a crush on me and he wont leave me alone. Whenever im standing somewhere he comes to talk to me or just anything hes always getting in my way. And i hate it.. i hate him. I found this job so i can be an idependent girl who makes it on her own. Im doing this for myself and only myself. I did NOT take this job to get fucking hooked up!... NO!!! grrrr :@ people can be so stupid. Oh well, whatever. Anyways yeah. Todays been interesting... One of the worst days in awhile, if not the worst.

Im just going to go now.. i will write later.

Love Your Secret Lover,
Ashlyn.

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Oct 10, 2003

Just Some Stuff On My Mind

Hey.. so yeah this entry is gunna be pretty much what the title says.. Just Some Stuff On My Mind.! here it goes. Life was going so so good and as usual i musta gone and jinxed it up becasue im back to feeling like garbage. Right Brandon.. i knew this was going to happen.. and i told u!! i TOLD U!! just like a couple of hours ago.. i said i was feeling amazing and i have been for awhile and i told u why and all and i said its gunna come and bite me in the ass i know it! and it did!! I don't even know why i bother to let my happiness get to me anymore. It's so dumb, it's so artifical. Happiness doesn't last, it's not meant to. I wish i knew what was going on in my head right now. I think today i just had to have a girly day and break down and just cry. :p. I deal with things in the worst way imaginable.. Even kyle basically said im so screwed up because i dont have a healthy way of dealing with things.

When i get confused, sad, w/e im hurting i go out buy a ton of choclate, run as fast as i can, blast music, write songs, just cry so much that it makes my eyes bleed, no joke. I work out. I dance. I scream. I do anything that just puts me into more pain, and when i can no longer take it i just lay on my bed, starring into my ceiling and cry. Just take it all away from me. I hate this. I don't understand what i do that makes my life come crashing in on me at all angles.

One minute my friends are happy, we are all happy. Its real. And then BOOM out of nowhere, you dont expect it, but pain just comes and attacks you. It attaches itself to you and your left out in the cold all alone.. I once heard a line from a song saying its funny how u miss a party and ur firends have gone and forgotten ur name or something like that. Anyways im not really sure how it goes and stuff but its something like that.. and it really got me thinking, it has had me thinking for awhile now. Its true. I feel like it. I feel like i blow my firends off once or i dont feel like doing something or talking about something or anything and BOOM im an outsider.. I feel so different, i feel so un-wanted.. i feel forgotten. But maybe i was just never there to begin with! well whatever the hell it is, i sure dont know!! But it's how i feel lately. Iv'e started hanging out with some friends i havent hung out with in a really long time.. some people i wanted to leave behind in my past.. But now that they are back i realize yeah they let me go when i wanted to even though i wanted them to chase me and catch me.. they are the people who know all my flaws, they know the real me. They know all about me. The good and the bad. I've never been anything but real to them and in return i feel they gave me the same...

Anyways yeah so im having a little trouble in that department. But you know what? I will deal. becasue being alone lets you save yourself. People wont always be there for you, friends can't always be there for you. So maybe life is easier without friends. fuk! i jsut don't know anymore. And im sure some of my friends are goign to click on this thingy and read this and be like Fuk yeah i sure mean a lot to you and bla bla bla and bitch and moan and whatever else they want to do. And normally i would be afraid to have my friends say stuff liek that to me, i would be afraid to have my friends read all this and stuff. But not anymore. I've gotten to the point where i dont think i have to hide anymore. If you really are my friend then you will read this and you'll understand how i feel. How i feel like a part of my life is missing and has always been and they will take me under their wing and help me find my life that i lost. Because soemwhere along the way we all lost our ways and just geez. i dont know!

I havent been in a relationship for what 8 + months now... i think thats what it is.. yeah tahts it. I don't even feel the need to be with someone, i don't feel the want to want someone to want me. Yeah, of course it would be nice to have what lovers in love have.. yeah. it really would. The hugging, kissing, cuddling, hand holding, eye staring, the butterflies, all of it. The being together and knowing what eachother was thinking, just feeling liek you had the best conversation in the world and not even having to open either of your mouths. Yeah, thats definitely somethign that would be nice to want. But it's not what i want and nobody understands that!!! All i want is a best friend that i can care about and who will eventually care about me and later on get into a serious relationship becasue this time round im not messing up! i want it to last forever, i dont want another one night stand or in my life (3 week stand) I just dont want it. I want something real. But im willing to wait for it. Right now, i just need a friend. If you can't understand that then your not trying to help me, which is cool. whatever. have fun with that.

Geez, this is really long and i cant write anymore. I just need to escape, someone please just come here take me away. Take me back home. The only place i've ever been able to call home and felt safe. I just want to go home! It's all i want! please!! Just let me go home!

Love Your Broken Teared Secret Admirer,
Ashlyn.

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PEEK A BOO!

Hey everyone. This is gunna be short cuz' i dont feel like typing. Im listening to hillary duff-inner strength.. its a really good song.. Anyways... Im in training cuz' provincials are comming up and im dead nervous. *wish me luck!* hahaha.

Last night i went to Brice's improv thingy with Jen it was super funny and tons of fun! :D. he did awesome. And cody was there and he is super funny too! Anyways then Brice drove us home and it was all good.

Anyways. It was an awesome night and im in a great mood and im training. I wanta catch a movie tonight.. anyone up for it? Call me! haha

Lata
Love Your Secret Lover,
Ashlyn.

Posted at 01:22 pm by crazydamage
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